Rational Thoughts of an Irrational Mind

In the background: Katatonia ~ "My Twin"

Empathy (n.)
The intellectual identification with or vicarious experiencing of the feelings, thoughts, or attitudes of another.

Have you ever found yourself so totally overwhelmed by emotions that were not yours? Have you ever been so empathetic toward one's situation that you are magically inside their home, experiencing their pain, sick to your stomach, down on the floor, crying in agony?

Why did I start this blog? What would I do if this simple form of expressing the things in my soul, my head, my heart were to backfire, open me even more to those who would use my heart to their will and toss it aside ... again? This is the risk I take, to bring down my walls and write once again.

I set out tonight to tell you a story, a very personal and detrimental one. However, as I wrote the last few paragraphs, I realized I was bearing my soul far too quickly. I wanted to tell my readers how devastating it is to have someone pretend to care and love you with every fiber of their being then vanish into thin air, never to be heard from again. I wanted you all to experience the one thing on the internet that broke my heart into pieces for the very first time.

But I could not bear to show it to you all, not yet. It's been around 6 years and I still find it very hard to come face to face with it. Oddly enough, in SL, I do every single day. I talk to the person who wants to portray themselves as this gorgeous, sexually arousing, aesthetically pleasing being. They want you to believe they are strong, wanted, in demand ... in a virtual world. When behind the screen, they are just as damaged as you are.


So what am I doing tonight then? 1:20am and I should be in bed and instead I am sitting here at my keyboard spilling forth words that really do not make much sense.


I am asking you to feel.

I am asking that when you tell someone you love them you mean it.


I am asking that you hold so tightly to those who matter to you that maybe there are times they cannot breathe.


I am asking you to tell those important people in your life, all lives, that they mean something to you.


And I am asking you to use empathy when dealing with others in all walks of life.


This is something you will truly need as you delve deeper into my stories. Because I am far from perfection. I am far from straight-laced. 


In every thing you do and every thing you encounter, be open minded. If you are not, you will never learn how the world truly is. And that would be devastating.


I think I'll end my rambling here for the time being. My eyes are starting to cross and that cannot be a good sign. I hope I have not run any of my followers off with this blog. Trust me, they will get more interesting as time goes along. 


Thanks for your time

~ Kis